Sunday, March 8, 2009

How'd I Get Here?

Remember when you were in college and you just knew where you'd be by the time you hit 30? I knew I'd be married. I knew I'd be making loads of money. I knew I'd be traveling the world. I knew I'd have accomplished enough to be interesting.

What happened?

Here I am, finding myself closer to 40 than 30, and I'm feeling a little disconcerted. I'm not a powerful attorney. I haven't published an amazing manuscript. My last paycheck was before the real estate market fell apart. Yes, I've traveled, but I'm not sure I'm exactly what you'd call well traveled, nor would I say I was particularly interesting.

I always had this idea of how people viewed me. I've always seen myself as creative, responsible, reliable, dependable, and although most of those things sound boring, I really did think I was at least somewhat interesting. Now days, I wonder where my head has been!

I've become too busy to feel creative. I have fleeting moments of irresponsibility (did you hear about the day last week when I fell asleep and the school bus driver called to see if I was coming to meet the kids?). Reliability--I'll try to remember to get back to you on that (but don't hold your breath!).

So, all I have left is "interesting" and I'm not sure I'm faring so well there, either! I post about getting my hair colored. I blog about going out to dinner. I call friends in excitement when I find a new recipe--is that interesting?! No, I didn't think so.

So the burning question is this: What do people do when they need to shake things up a bit? I think maybe I need a hobby. Any suggestions? Photography? Skydiving? Anyone? Bueller?


Lisa S said...

When I was 20 I just knew I would be married by the time I was 24. I had a roommate who was 24 and I couldn't understand why she wasn't married. If you had told me at 20 that it wouldn't be for another 14 years before my nupituals I probably would have cried. Now I have an 18 and 15 year old, and I think I need a hobby too. Dancing with the Stars is coming... I'm always inspired to want to take ballroom dance lessons. Haven't
yet maybe this time :)

honeypiehorse said...

You may be asking the wrong audience. . . I had a phase where I took beading and sewing lessons and have had a few fun hours making things but really, that's just more stuff I have to do. Interesting's overrated. Give me a cup of strong coffee, a comfy sofa, a bit of chocolate, a good book and an hour to myself any day.

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